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If you're just feeling nice!
Trying to raise funds for books and other fancy college stuff!  Everything helps <3
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Hunter "Xanth" E. C.
x-Xanthia-Beats-x | xHunterBeatsx
Genderfluid | INFP/INTJ | Taurus | Pessimist
Polyamorous | Asexual
I am also on (xHunterBeatsx) :: | tumblr | Instagram
Wot by x-Xanthia-Beats-x


Loving someone means putting them first.
Their love.
Their happiness.
Their pain, or lack thereof.
Never your own.
Until they love you back.
Then, you share that priority.
That love.
That happiness.
That pain, and the lack thereof.
It's not just his, it's not just hers, it's not just yours or mine or any one person's.
It's ours.
And once you turn I into we,
Then you unlock the key to true bliss.
And then the yin-yang concept comes to pass and the duo or trio cycles around.
And everyone makes everyone happy.

Don't be selfish.
By putting aside your own sadness and filling the cracks in another's heart,
Your cracks will soon be mended as well.


I have a deep fear that all we'll be doing
is Playing into each others' Hands
each one dragging the other into the deep Abyss


I just want to be happy for more than a moment.

What makes you happy?

The thought of holding someone's heart in my hands
and them holding mine in theirs
and being able to lightly and gently and softly kiss it
without having to take a bite.




Feeling used
But I'm
Still missing you
And I can't
See the end of this
Just wanna feel your kiss
Against my lips
And now all this time
Is passing by
But I still can't seem to tell you why
It hurts me every time I see you
Realize how much I need you

I hate you, I love you,
I hate that I love you
Don't want to but I can't put nobody else above you
I hate you, I love you,
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her

I miss you when I can't sleep
Or right after coffee
Or right when I can't eat
I miss you in my front seat
Still got sand in my sweaters
From nights we don't remember
Do you miss me like I miss you?
Fucked around and got attached to you
Friends can break your heart too,
And I'm always tired but never of you
If I pulled a you on you, you wouldn't like that shit
I put this reel out, but you wouldn't bite that shit
I type a text but then I never mind that shit
I got these feelings but you never mind that shit
Oh oh, keep it on the low
You're still in love with me but your friends don't know
If you wanted me you would just say so
And if I were you, I would never let me go

I don't mean no harm
I just miss you on my arm
Wedding bells were just alarms
Caution tape around my heart
You ever wonder what we could have been?
You said you wouldn't and you fucking did
Lie to me, lie with me, get your fucking fix
Now all my drinks and all my feelings are all fucking mixed
Always missing people that I shouldn't be missing
Sometimes you gotta burn some bridges just to create some distance
I know that I control my thoughts and I should stop reminiscing
But I learned from my dad that it's good to have feelings
When love and trust are gone
I guess this is moving on
Everyone I do right does me wrong
So every lonely night I sing this song

I hate you, I love you,
I hate that I love you
Don't want to but I can't put nobody else above you
I hate you, I love you,
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her

All alone I watch you watch her
Like she's the only girl you've ever seen
You don't care you never did
You don't give a damn about me
Yeah all alone I watch you watch her
She is the only thing you ever see
How is it you never notice
That you are slowly killing me

I hate you, I love you,
I hate that I love you
Don't want to but I can't put nobody else above you
I hate you, I love you
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her


kitty kitties



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I've cleared my watchilst of any deviant/group that I didn't immediately recognize by name as a friend or someone I want to watch for whatever reason.
If I accidentally deleted you (and we like- talk often) then let me know! ;w;"
Tbh people in general need to stop thinking they are the be-all end-all of the universe. Like, not every single stranger in the Internet cares if you have a hissy over nothing and block them. It doesn't matter. No one person on this site is known and loved by everyone else, so don't act like we should be kissing the ground you walk on.

This goes for "famous" people, too. Artists on this site likely aren't actually famous.
In my opinion, you're really only considered famous if ::
- Your works are featured in galleries/museums/etc.
- You are studied in a school classroom
- You are a household name
- You are actively followed by news media
- Etc.

Now maybe some artists on dA do fit at least the first thing, but even then it does NOT give you an excuse to act like a dick. Being "famous", owning a CS, being a group admin, etc. does not give ANYONE divine right to be a jerk to anyone, especially "nobodies"
It sickens me to see big names take advantage of people willy-nilly just because they know if the victim decided to speak up, they could send their army of white knights to stomp them down and send death threats. It is not okay. I've seen it too many times, where "famous" people (some I've never even heard of!) have refused to get off their high horse and admit that they are wrong in their actions. It pisses me off. Being "famous" does not automatically mean you are right in every single situation, and that anyone who dares disagree is a child and a liar. I'm a fucking 19 year old college student, I'm not one of your middle-school lunch buddies.

Everyone here needs to grow the fuck up.

I'm tired of it.
My core is running out too oh geez--

lol wait thank you you angel <33

How much would you price these pipe-cleaner things at? (pics will be linked in comments) 

5 deviants said 20-30$
4 deviants said Less than 10$
4 deviants said 30-40$
3 deviants said 10-20$
2 deviants said 40-50$
No deviants said More than 50$




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dracothrope Featured By Owner 5 days ago
Thank you for the fav! :D
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Joe-Roberts Featured By Owner Jun 9, 2017  Professional Digital Artist
Thanks for the F:+fav:ve
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Pyrogoldenwheel510 Featured By Owner Apr 24, 2017
hey xanthia, i've just been looking for siblings for my hybrid, Calypso, and through research, it seems that you have a hybrid that belongs to the same clutch as him. do you happen to have a reference for the hybrid? just because i am hoping to have calypso go on a sibling hunt. 

the hybrid in question is a mega absol/ninetales/umbreon/reshiram, sold by nataliadriscol?

thanks in advance for your help :)
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ventingClown Featured By Owner Apr 10, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
I almost forgot you owe me art for this two character designs I gave you
Because I accidently deleted that journal of the transaction like an idiot
i can't even remember who you were ganna draw.
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